Currently Playing Futures By Jimmy Eat World Hear You Me (May Angels Lead You In) see related

Wow, it's been quite some time since I actually wrote in this thing. It will be quite brief, because I don't feel like writing much at the moment. Sorry bout the last couple entries, I had a crisis, of course, involving a guy, but shit happens.

Summing the past couple weeks into one word :

INSANE

BUT....

I'm loving it!

P.S. Amanda, I'm not in love/obsessed with James. You nut. haha. Thanks for stoppin by...Andrew, you're interesting.

I'm out, and I swear I'm not under any type of substance other than Orange Sherbert...I'm kinda random....I've had 12 hours of friggen Hallmark today...you try it sometime. ;o)

Currently Playing The Reason By Hoobastank see related

I thought it was too good to be true
I found somebody who understands me
Someone who would help me to get through
And fill an emptiness i had inside me
But you kept inside and I just denied
Some things that we should have both said
I knew it was too good to be true
Cause i'm the only one who understands me

What happened to us
We used to be so perfect, now we're lost and lonely
What happened to us
And deep inside I wonder, did i lose my only?

Remember they thought we were too young
To really know what it takes to make it
But we had survived off what we have done
So we could show them all that they're mistaken
But who could have known the lies that would grow
Until we could see right through them
Remember they knew we were too young
We still don't know what it takes to make it

We could have made it work, we could have found a way,
We should have done our best to see another day
But we kept it all inside until it was too late
And now we're both alone, the consequence we pay
For throwing it all away, for throwing it all away...

Here I am
Once again
I’m torn into pieces
Can’t deny it
Can’t pretend
Just thought you were the one
Broken up deep inside
But you won’t get to see the tears I cry
Behind these hazel eyes

I told you everything
Opened up and let you in
You made me feel alright for once in my life
Now all that’s left of me
Is what I pretend to be
So together but so broken up inside

Cause I can’t breathe
No I can’t sleep
I’m barely hanging on

Swallow me then spit me out
For hating you, I blame myself
Just seeing you it kills me now
No I don’t cry
On the outside anymore...

--I thought things would be different than what they are...being stabbed in the heart as well as in the back hurts so much more than any normal heartbreak...I can actually feel the pain...

Currently Playing Emotion is Dead By The Juliana Theory see related

UPDATE:

--Most of you probably already know that I have been accepted to the University of Hartford in Conneticut. I'm so happy. If I go, I'm about 30 mins from Hergie and that's good because I'll have someone I know close by and we can hang out. :o)

OTHER NEWS:

--Dad's home for a couple days! Well, now it's only about 1 more day. He goes back to Mississippi on Thursday and then he's being shipped out on January 1st. I hate the phrase "shipped out"...*grunts*...sounds like he's being referred to as cattle for the market...

--Stephen Benish's funeral was held this week...it's so sad that one of our own alumni from ALJ was killed in Iraq...I wish the best to his family and his loved ones...20 years old...he had so much more to live for...

<3 always,

Melissa

Currently Playing Confessions By Usher My Boo see related

*Reach for the sky...even if you miss, you'll land among the stars*

Two good things to inform you of!

1.) I checked my SAT scores online....and I got a 1040. THANK GOD. [so relieved]

2.) Dad emailed me:

Hi Kiddo,

I miss you so much! How is your car? Having fun? You doing ok baby? At nite I miss you guys the most, and when you come home from school! Well this is the way it is for now.
I'm doing ok, training is going ok and will finish here next Wensday and ship out of here Monday after Turkey Day to the California desert for more training till Dec. 17 and back to Mississippi...Please be good for mom and your sister. You only have each other to take care of each other. And make sure you lock all doors and windows,lol, for real! I'll call real soon ok.

Love,
Dad

--Sooo good to hear from him. I haven't recieved a call since Monday.

Melissa <3